Today i just decided not to go out because i thought it will rain, i just decided to continue washing the clothes. My brother txt me earlier today to say that my nephew won the rap last nights contest. His talented and smart..too bad he didnt went to college again this year. I really wanted to help him but i can't afford for now, dana only works and me it's like once a week. He might think also its always my family. I just went to help them since my brother died. I feel like what happen to my father before happen to my eldest brother. I still feel sad until now,we haven't really talk after we had some argument. It's like deep inside my heart i will carry this pain. Even his kids now they seem different now.

I call target to ask if i can have vacation for a month this november , our human resource said that i need to file a leave of absence and they will just see and approv. So i was searching for airline ticket and i found hawaiin airline for 2400 plus for 3 person,i tempted to buy but i'm just worried i'm gonna use again credit cards and we cant pay off yet this month. I  really missed my family. I need also to process something there for the house that we bought.

This past months i experienced a lot of headaches. It might be because of my birht control pills. I sometimes feel depressed and irritated so much. I wanted to stop taking this pills but i am afraid to get pregnant. It is not yet plan to have another baby. Im gonna wait til i petition mom. I still have a lot to do like i might go to school and take some courses. I'm tired of not having some savings..i want to go to work full time again.

As kaia growing,she seems more interested on helping me on household chores. Like yesterday i was washing clothes and when i fold them she came into me and help so i teached her how to fold and i let her put the clothes separately like her daddy's clother,mine and hers. It takes awhile but she's getting there. Now she's starting turning on and off on the switches using small chairs so she could reached it.

She actually can talk now like pig, balls, daddy,mie shortcut on mommy i just need to teach her and she will follow. Now I’m starting braiding her hair it takes really patient as she keeps moving like she doesn’t like it. It really hurts honestly. She more danced in front of the tv, when im doing my taebo also she imitates me. Whenever she ask for snack and when im about to open she will grab the scissor so i can open them. Whenever she wants something that I can’t reached it she always get the stool. So i'm very happy of her. She really helps. She more danced in front of the tv, when im doing my taebo also she imitate me. Whenever she ask for snack and when im about to open she will grab the scissor so i can open them. Whenever she wants something that Ican’t reached it she always get the stool. So i'm very happy of her. She really helps.

Today we went for a walk since the sun comes out. We first stopped by one of neighbor, they have a small kid there named Lena. They always stays home when we normally take a walk. Her grandmother said that lena's mom is having a second baby. I found out that its still be a girl. She still drink formula though she didnt like to drink a whole milk.   I told her that they should try her giving whole milk because that's the advise most of the pediatrician. Well they can just try a small to start her and then we she gets use to it maybe she might drink more.

We went to the Contempo Park its very near in our place..they have swing and a sliding for kids,they have also some tables,chairs and a barbeque grill if somebody might want to have a party. It's a descent park, we just normally walk there since i need a little bit exercises and also kaia. Kaia really loves to slide she didnt want to go home but i feel hungry so i walk and then she followed me and she just walked until we got home.. I really thought she gonna ask me to carry her. I guess its my lucky day huh..When i went home we just relax for a bit and then i start broiling ther pork ribs for our dinner. Kaia just watched tv until she feels asleep.. she must be tired she sleep for 2 hours..not bad i have time to continue reading the driving test book for DMV. I need to drive really,i feel nervous always. It might be because of my birth control pills. I have this feeling sometimes that it feels like im gonna be having a heart attack..Im really scared, i really wanted to stop this but i dont know what to use anymore. All of the birth control pills have side effects. I dont want yet to have a second baby. We have to wait till we pay off the cars. So we dont have to worry anymore all we need to think is our mortgage.

Well our goal this year is to pay off dana's car and we might also went for vacation this year, I'm really waiting to visit my family back in the philippines. I need to talk to my brothers family also they have some serious family problem maybe I can help,hopefully..

Kaia started sitting last week. She moves a lot now and if she can find something that help her to stand she will stand so we have a feeling that she will walk sooner. Last night when she was about to sleep she talked something that we don't understand but its a word already. She's pretty smart and advance baby, she knows where to press on her toy so it had sounds. It's fun and we earned it from our hard work for her. Soon she will be having her gyms and playard i am sure she will walk quickly with that.. :lol:

My little girl seems not anymore, she's growing so fast. Now she start practicing to crawl she can't move forward yet but she can rotate already.. Were planning to buy a walker so she can practice walking..she's pretty smart, whenever she was with me when i type on my computer she also type whatever..when we use the remote control she will look up and observed what we do to the remote control..she ate breakfast, lunch, and dinner now. I gave her the oatmeal in the morning and juice mixed with water after feeding. And then at lunch time and dinner I gave her the Gerber fruit foods..She still drink with my milk and also formula....